Trying To Find A Happy Medium
If you haven’t noticed, the tumble weed has been gracing the home screen of my blog for the last couple weeks now. Everything was going great, I’d set myself a regular schedule of posting Monday, Wednesday and Friday and I was receiving feedback from you lot. Then I dropped the occasional Monday post, which turned into dropping Friday’s… then dropping it all.
Life is complicated and hard, I’m a final year student and eventually my deadlines we’re going to catch up with me, which meant the more enjoyable tasks went on the back burner. I’m an extremely organised and planned person, but I can’t force creative content which is where I’ve been struggling recently.
I don’t want this article to be a complete rant, because let’s be honest, nothing worthwhile is easy and within reaching distance. It’s a case of finding that happy medium and I doubt anyone manages to maintain that constantly 24/7. I recently submitted two pieces of work and actively took part in an assessment all roughly within about several hours of each other, obviously excluding working on the pieces themselves. I still have more to do, by the time you read this I’ll be refreshing over notes for a law exam later, but I’m slowly starting to fall back into gear.
I’ve got about 14 days before heading down to London, this time to celebrate New Years with one of my best friends and now graduate, Carys.
During the brief blogging hiatus, my mental health took a huge hit and declined rapidly for a solid 2 weeks. Shit loads of tears, anxiety and pouring my heart out to my tutor one afternoon, was where I was at and I seriously considering asking for medication from my doctor. But luckily it all got better and my mood has been pretty satisfactory since. I couldn’t tell you what helped the shift in attitude, if anything I’m surprised the increased amount of deadline orientated stress didn’t trigger it all off again, but I’m cool right now so let’s not jinx it shall we?
Balancing your life, whether you think it isn’t busy and others do or visa versa can be a rough and rocky road. I’m blessed that I have such a passion (I hate that word) for writing, which aids my management in some elements of life and in others acts as an escape mechanism that many others don’t have the luxury of.
Before the year is out, I’m planning on doing a very long and detailed article about 2016 as a whole. I don’t know the layout, but I’m contemplating on breaking it down month by month and doing it as a two part series. So the first 6 months will be in one post and the other 6 will be in the following post (maybe something in-between?).
More than anything it will be there for me to help rationalise certain scenarios that I’ve intentionally placed myself in and those which I’ve had little to no control over, positive and negative. Like usual it will be rather raw and uncut (I actually wrote uncunt originally which proves my point), and will probably discuss things that I’ve covered here in more detail. Names will be removed for privacy and respect to those involved, but if you’re close to me you’ll probably figure out the finer details.
I hope the lack of articles hasn’t been too frustrating to those of you who got into the swing of regular content, but I’m getting there.
I’m finding my happy medium, and I’m so glad.